Life is about choices…looking back on some of my major ones I realize that the worst ones have been made at the worst times…not too much of a surprise there I know.

But why is it that in our worst times we go searching for it all.

And why is it that we begin with the heart and somehow rarely go beyond it.

Zofo was talking today…of the one, the want for pleasant companionship…as for me I am without hope and without strength to find the one.

My confusion was about the one…was it really? I am still not sure.

Maybe in another world I’d be happy…hell in another world I’d be good looking as well. And the “one” would perhaps be looking for me instead.

My confusion was mine,yesterday I selfishly made it someone else’s as well.

Remorse is what I am feeling right now.

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels,

The dizzy dancing way you feel

As every fairy tale comes real;

I've looked at love that way.

But now it's just another show.

You leave 'em laughing when you go

And if you care, don't let them know,

Don’t give yourself away.

Joni Mitchell was right…don’t give your self away.